if you're wondering why

I've tried meditation, but a cup of watery filter coffee while listening to The Smiths has a better effect on me.

What counts

It's been a while, I know.
I was lost in the dark, I guess.
I would say
there is so much I have to tell you
but I won't
cause I'm not going to write about it.
What counts is this: now.
Hello back.

take me to the beach

The boy & me went to the south of England for a while to enjoy the summer. Days at the beach, reading Dickens, cream teas and early evening Pimm's, vintage markets, food markets, funny German delis in London, vintage bookshops, barbecues, meeting old friends and watching lots of seagulls - my favourite birds, ever. It was perfection.

The dress in the picture is a maxi dress, by the way, sorry you can't see the whole thing - I should take better outfit pictures.

reflection: 'Girls'

So. I wasn't going to write anything about it at first, cause seriously, everybody in the blogosphere has commented on this. But I have watched every episode of 'Girls' so far and have to say I'm still undecided on whether I like it or not. Even though I tend to like slightly melancholy movies, and I never feel down afterwards, the constant unhappiness of the girls in this series sometimes has managed to drag me down. I wish it didn't. I really do.

 I like that many important issues are being adressed, especially the ones which are usually not mentioned in feel good series, or only as a side issue. For example, if you compare the STD-scare  episode of Girls ('Vagina Panic') to several Sex and the City episodes,  you will see that these topics are dealt with much more lightheartedly on SATC and maybe also a bit irresponsibly - see Elizabeth Boskey's article on this here.
I also like the way the girls are portrayed as real girls rather than absolute glamazones (I can't believe I just wrote that - is this even an actual word?), the way their clothes are not overly expensive and their apartments are not exactly fancy when they are playing characters that have hardly any money.
And I have to admit - Hannah is pretty hilarious.

However, I just can't deal with all the problems they always seem to be having. And I'm in their age range, planing my career, my life (ok, i'm not done with my studies yet - so does that mean I don't know what's coming for me yet?) and everything, and yes, it's hard and I feel lost sometimes, and I don't think there's enough advice on how to find the right path for students (at least not in Germany) - but life's not that bleak, and not every day is super depressing. But that's the impression 'Girls' gave me, at least the first few episodes. I felt like towards the end of season one it got a little lighter.

Blabla.

I know, after all, it's only a TV-show (even if it claims to be super realistic which I suppose it is sometimes) and we shouldn't take it too seriously. I do like the show over all, and I will be watching season two and see what happens - maybe it will be a little more cheerful, who knows.

mum's scarf

wearing my mum's old 70ies scarf, vintage earrings and necklace designed by me